Sunday, November 5, 2017

What I Know

What I know about grief, or life, or love, or even faith....is that it knows no timetable.  It's complicated. Some days it just hits you. It brings new meaning to you. It brings tears. Sometimes it brings relief.

I think about life in segments, before marriage, before kids, before divorce, after remarriage, after Gordon. I think, therefore I am. I say this because it's true, but also to prove I was listening one day (not everyday) in college philosophy.  Let's take that further. I laugh, therefore I am. I learn, therefore I am. I cry, therefore I am. I believe, therefore I am. The important part is I am

I am. While I am relearning who I am, I believe I will be more than what I was before. I'll still be a crazy dog lady, I'll still be a hugger, and have the burning desire to feed anyone who enters my home. I'll still have one eye on Pinterest and the other on Facebook, and the two eyes behind my head on my kids. Well, maybe. They are adults now and don't need me that way. I'll feel deeper, and perhaps weep easier. If that's possible. My faith will be more sound.

I know I am responsible for my choices, my attitude, my faith. If I'm lacking something I have the inner strength to find it. If I lack strength, I have the power of prayer.

What I know is there are gifts to be found in every life situation. Yes, even in sorrow. Open those gifts, embrace them, gather your faith and grow.

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