My answers are easy and hard at the same time. I surround myself with dogs. As any crazy dog lady would. And flowers, faith and awe. I've been surrounded by sorrow and while I embrace it, I look forward to a time it is not a constant shadow. "What if" questions trail me daily usually followed by "I had". What if I had, or what if I hadn't? In time, I trust, there will be less looking back, less regret. More looking forward, more trusting forward.
I/we/you need to surround ourselves with more laughter, more acceptance, more time in the moment. When I slow down enough to be in this moment I hear the birds singing, the hum of the washing machine, see the corn blowing in the breeze, hear the sound of a dog snoring. I wrap myself in this moment and it is good.
Over the weekend I was wrapped in sorrow as the day of our wedding anniversary came and went. I knew it would be hard, and I knew I'd need to be gentle with myself. Sometimes we need to surround ourselves very gently with compassion. I also know the upcoming holiday will be hard, they all are in this chapter of my life. Again, I'll welcome the tears and the healing they provide.
What if we did that? What if we surrounded ourselves with compassion? What if we narrowed our focus to this moment, this day. And in that moment we find the good, the kindness, the joy...even if we are in a time of sorrow. Even if we are in transition, even if we are afraid. Even if. By narrowing our focus we can surround ourselves with the graces, large and small, that are there for us all.
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