Give it UP

Whenever I come up short on something, I have two go to responses. Try harder to make up the deficit.  Or give up something of value to make up the difference. Both of those approaches presume that I have all the power, when in fact I have precious little. Instead of trusting first I attempt to fix the situation. Dang, that is exhausting.

I know I need a different approach. I know what it should be. I need to give it up. Yet, I often forget, or lack faith, or don't want to let go and let God.

Who's with me on this? Time and time again I've seen the bigger plan fall into place. I've seen the blessings that came from traumatic times. I've felt the grace. I've received gifts, made connections, been spared pain, been removed from harm's way, felt the love, shed the tears, shared the laughter, been wrapped in comfort. I've found a way to pay the bills, to care for my needs, to make the changes necessary. Still, I attempt to try my way first. When I get out of my own way miracles happen. 

I do have to laugh at the irony of all this. I know about ask and you shall receive. I do. Nowhere it is written try harder, try longer, go without, you have the power. Not. Definitely not. Yet I falter. Owning it is the first step.

So, for all of us who are floundering the good news is we are not alone. We are in fact a very large group of humans having human moments that we wish we could fix. My challenge, perhaps yours too, is to set it down. Release, trust, take a deep breath and give it up. So that the greater good can come to pass. And it will. It will, it will, I trust it will.